A reason, a season, a lifetime…..

Hey there!

Relationships……….

I have been pondering relationships a lot lately; I mean there are just so many. There the acquaintance/friendship relationships you make at work, the acquaintances/friendships you make with the parents of your children’s sporting team/s, through your child/children’s schooling, your own sporting interests, or learning environments, friends you make through other friends, your partner in life, your children, parents, siblings, the list is endless when you think about it. There are some people you connect with almost instantly, others you have to put a lot of effort into, and some where straight up, off the bat, your whole being is telling you not to of there! Some of these acquaintances/friendships dwindle off, never begin, or sadly, even end, while others last a life time.

In my quest for knowledge, and while reading “Miracles Now” by Gabrielle Bernstein, I came across a fantastic way of looking at all relationships in general. Well, I have found it to be fantastic, and a huge help to me, in how I look at, and perceive all relationships-        ” look at all relationships as your own spiritual assignment”. Look for the positives in each “assignment” and draw on those, for optimal growth and healing.

For as long as I can recall, I have believed that people come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime, and when combining that belief system with, all relationships are a spiritual assignment, I am beginning to let go of limiting beliefs around how I interact with others’. Reflecting on those words, reason, season, lifetime and the relationships attached to those words, forces me to focus on the “teachings” behind it all, and I’m guessing (cause I’m still trying to figure it all out) until an “assignment” is passed, or the lesson learnt, we will continue to have those types of relationships show up in our lives in one form or another.

So, I am trying to be  consciously aware of how I interact with everyone I meet, as well as with my friends and family members. Trying to not take things to heart as much as I usually would (which is extremely hard, I don’t mind telling you!), trying to remember to visualise myself in my little bubble, so I don’t absorb other’s energy and mirror their behaviour, adapting the mindset, everyone you meet, and every relationship you form has a part to play, be it big or small, in your journey that is life, is helping me tackle each assignment thrown my way.

Some of the questions I ask myself  (which can be tricky in the heat of the moment) are;

✨What is it I am being shown about myself?

✨What vibe or feeling is it I am picking up on, either about myself or the relationship/other person?

✨What/how can I learn from this relationship/person?

✨How can I grow from this?

Some days I have not a clue, other days its like being hit by a lightning bolt ⚡️

One of the best pieces of advise I have received regarding relationships, again came via reading; “Light is the New Black” by  Rebecca Campbell………

“You are not for everyone, the world is filled with people who, no matter what you do, will point blank not like you…………….

Don’t waste your precious time and gifts trying to convince them of your value, they won’t ever want what you are selling………….”

I struggled with this concept a little at first, after all; who doesn’t want to be liked?

But as I’m still learning (clearly through my own spiritual assignments), that it is perfectly ok, because there some people who you are definitely for, they are the ones you will love you and support you no matter what, have your back always, be honest enough to pull you up when they can see you need some loving guidance, or just a good plain forehead slap 😃 Those are the people/relationships you want to have around for a lifetime, regardless of the lessons you are teaching or learning.  Let the others be a reason or a season, learn what you can from them for your own optimal growth, let go of what you don’t need from them, and move on.

Speaking of relationships,as I write this I  have just celebrated my 20th wedding anniversary. I have been reminiscing and reflecting on my relationship with my husband. In my heart, I believe that my relationship with my husband, is a relationship for a lifetime. When the universe throws us a curve ball (and we have had a few), he is my rock, my constant, my soul mate. We face each hurdle, good or bad, together. When I feel like it’s all too much and my anxiety, self-doubt and depression sets in, it’s his belief in me, that instills my belief in myself. He has seen me at my best, and stood by me, at my worst. He sees the good in me, when I fail to see it myself, he sees my worth when I feel worthless, and he continues to teach me how to accept and receive love and help from others. Yep, I definitely think he is for me, a keeper for sure ❤️

And he thinks he’s the lucky one! I know, go figure…….

Until next time, take care of you ……

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Confession time!!!

Hey there!

So, I have a confession to make………….

Of late, I haven’t been a kind, caring and loving person to someone who plays a very important role in my life. In fact, I have been down right cruel to this person. To the point that at times, I truly believe that this person is not worthy of love, kindness or even just friendly help and guidance; from me, or anyone. After all, it’s always easier to be judgemental, cynical and negative, than to be open minded, loving and positive-right???

And, while I’m being so open and honest; I was so unloving and cruel to this person, that she believed with all her heart, that this world, and her family would be better off without her. I know, how cruel was I ?!?!?

Thankfully, as the pros and cons of leaving it all behind were unfolding, one of her sons made a call to her. Reminded her that she is worthy. Reminded her that she is loved. Reminded her that he, and her family needed her……….Talk about timing, right? 😇

That person that I have been so cruel and judgemental of; she’s me………

You see,  for someone who truly wants what is best for everyone around me, I find it extremely difficult to see, accept and receive the same from others. Those of you who  know me personally, or have even been reading my previous posts, will know that anxiety, and unworthiness is something that goes hand in hand for me. I am often there to advise, care for, and even point others in the right direction of self love and acceptance, but it is something that I, more often than not, struggle with for myself.

Which leads me to my next confession…………..

I have had a year thus far of doctors appointments, blood tests and every scan imaginable, all followed up with specialist appointments. I don’t want to say that I’m unwell, or sick as such, because I’m very aware that our thoughts help create and shape our reality, but I haven’t been fighting fit, I have been extremely unwell at times, and myself and my family, have had to put up with days of me just simply, not being able to get out of bed.

Now, I would like to consider my self a positive, happy, compassionate and caring person, but I’m here to tell you that the ongoing health factors, along with being prone to anxiety, panic attacks and mental anguish due to the chemical imbalance from MTHFR; I sometimes struggle to keep up the appearance of positivity; especially where myself is concerned! So, when I found myself consumed with frustration, negativity, unworthiness, and self doubt, putting myself down, self loathing, and feeling like a burden to those closest to me-self harm was easier to contemplate than you may think……..

“Everything happens for a reason”so, I asked myself and God/the Universe /Spirit (insert whatever is applicable to you); “what is the lesson for me right now?”

I quietened my mind. It was hard, hard to push past the “chatter” that is constantly going round and round in my mind, especially with the most recent turn of events so prominent and at the fore front of my thinking, but when I took the time to listen, really listen to that little voice in my mind (you know the one), I heard…….“surrender”!

Surrender to life, not run or hide from it.

Surrender to what will be, don’t fight and control every little thing.

Surrender to the universe, in the big scheme of things, things aren’t all that bad.

Surrender to my feelings, my feelings are important and I don’t have to justify them to anyone.

Surrender my fears of being worthy.

Surrender my fears of love.

Surrender my fears of acceptance.

Now I need to act. Allow myself to surrender. Trust that everything is unfolding as it should, and to forgive and release the uncaring, unloving and negative actions I have done to myself. Surrender to the possibilities of what is yet to come.

Am I worried as I write this, what others will think? Hell yes!

Will I feel judged? Of course I will, but I kinda figure people will (and do) judge me no matter what I say or do, and if writing and sharing my life experiences, the real, authentic me, that is perfectly flawed on so many levels, can help just one other person, then people can judge me all they like!

Until next time, take care of you…..

 

Trene x

******If you, or someone you know and love, feels like life is all to much, I have included some helpful links to check out 🌈******

I have used lyrics in the past to help describe how I’m feeling, and for me right now, I’m finding this song meaningful-enjoy!

WHO YOU ARE~Jessie J

 

perfectly imperfect

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah
The more I try the less it’s working, yeah,
‘Cause everything inside me screams, no, no, no, no, yeah

Don’t lose who you are, in the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing
It’s okay not to be okay
Sometimes it’s hard, to follow your heart
But tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising
There’s nothing wrong with who you are

Read more: Jessie J – Who You Are Lyrics | MetroLyrics

 

 

 

2016 “Taking Care of Me”

Hey there!

I know this is a little late but, Happy New Year.

It has been months since I have written anything. To be totally honest, I have been laying low……There has been a huge amount of change occurring in my little world, and for a long time I have felt that my thoughts, feelings and the events taking place in my life, pale in, or are not as significant, in comparison to others.

After taking the time, and holding space, for getting in touch with past and current hurts, both during, and immediately after Wanderlust, I was reminded of my own mantra, “take care of you”. So, instead of looking toward others for answers, I took the time to listen to me, my heart, and my husband. I replied to an email applying to become an “Earth Angel” for a local, yet taking the world by storm organisation, Earth Events. Guess what??? They must’ve liked me, my application was successful!! Basically, my role is to attend events that this awesome company put together and organises for other awesome, well known people, and contribute to the event running smoothly; from welcoming the guests and making sure that they have their gift bags, to setting and packing up, and everything in between. And,  I also get to sit in on the event! The overall feeling and energy is nothing short of amazing. Just like Wanderlust; to be in a room full of people whose sole intent and actions come from a loving, mindful and kind place is bliss. There is no judgement, because everyone there is there to educate, and learn from a place of good and positive intentions, there is no space for judgment and fear. It was here, in this space, that I made my decision to take leave from work, and some aspects of my life as I knew it to be…………

At the same time, each of our boys were about to embark on new life adventures. Our eldest son was flying to, and staying in the USA for an extended period of time. Our middle son, was accepted in to a different school. When we applied we were hopeful, but not really expecting him to be offered a position. And, our youngest, was about to start on the next chapter of his schooling life, with the upcoming move in to high school. I had fears regarding all of their changes, even though logically I knew they would be fine, I had this “heaviness” and fear regarding all of changes and events that I could not explain.

Full of doubt and fear I applied for, and was granted leave at work, at that point, everything shifted. My doubt and “heaviness” was gone, there was just one more obstacle to conquer; permission from myself. To allow myself this time to take care of me without fear, guilt, or any other emotion that hurtled its way toward me! If I’m going to be totally honest right now, I’m still getting my head around it, but there a moments when I allow myself to relax, really relax and let go, its kinda like relaxing into a nice warm bubble bath, and when I’m there, I  feel more present, present for both myself, and my family.

So, its fair to say that so far, 2016 has been a year of change for me. Anyone who knows me, knows that I function best with structure and routine, but that being said, I’m embracing 2016, the year of change, and set my intention for this year as simply,                    ” follow my heart’s desires”. 

I’m taking care of me, listening to my heart, embracing my leave, and looking forward to my next “Earth Angel” event 💜🌏😇

Until next time, I sincerely hope that you are taking care of you!

Trene x

“It is ok to rest-when I rest, my body and mind heals 💜”~Trene x

 

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Love, not judge………

Hey there!

The other week I attended the Wanderlust Festival 2015, right here on the beautiful Sunshine Coast QLD Australia, and had a fantastic time! I remember watching the news earlier in the year when the Sunshine Coast Council announced the festival was coming to the coast, and feeling so excited. Yoga, meditation, lifestyle speakers, live music and entertainment, right here, literally 10 minutes from my front door-I couldn’t wait!

Yoga and meditation have been apart of my life for over the past ten years. The breathing techniques for both practices have helped me immensely with various life changing events that have, and are still, occurring within my life, as well as my anxiety and panic attacks. Regulating and focusing on breathe, not only helps with yoga postures, but it also helps with slowing the mind for when panic or anxiety kicks in. So, when the weekend (or more like the 4 days) finally arrived, I was definitely ready and keen to attend.

Prior to attending the weekend, I needed to schedule my days. I recall feeling frustrated with myself because there was specific sessions I wanted to attend, and when I tried to schedule myself into those particular classes, they were full-ARGH! Begrudgingly, I started to book myself into other classes/sessions, whilst continuing to put my name down on the waiting lists for the classes that were full in the hope of slotting into a slot.

Emotions were running high on Day 1, Thursday. Where do I go when I arrive? Will I know anyone there? Will I be able to successfully participate in everything I’ve signed up for? Will I be able to slot into the classes I’m on the waiting list for? To say that I was feeling overwhelmed, would be an accurate way to describe me that day!

My first session on the first day was “Float like a Butterfly, Focus like a Yogi” meditation was with yogi and meditator, Duncan Peak. I LOVED it! It set my mood for not only the day, but for the duration of the festival. I’m not going to give you a blow by blow, retell of my four days, but I do want to share the, or should I say, my “theme” and my “intention” that I took from this blissful experience.

Over the course of the four days, I never made any of the classes that I had put my name down on the waiting list for. So, because I believe that everything happens for a reason,I know that I was never meant to attend those sessions/classes, and I was definitely attending the ones that I needed to participate in. Every meditation that I did, and I mean every meditation, focused on my “inner child”; hence my theme for the course of the festival. Every class/session that I participated in touched my heart, soul and mind in ways that I wasn’t expecting. I laughed, cried, yoga-ed (is that even a word???), and meditated in ways that forced me to look at myself and my life, from a totally different perspective; the perspective of the little girl that resides in my heart, that needs nurturing-my “inner child”. We all have one, but how often do we take the time to listen to, and nurture that child? All to often, we get caught up in our fast paced, responsible, “adult” lives, and stop nurturing the essence of who we are, or worse, we totally ignore and forget, who we are.

By day three, after an awesome 90 minute yoga session, with Blissology Yoga couple, Eion Finn and the lovely, Insiya Rasiwala-Finn, we were guided to set ourselves an intention. So, whilst embracing Shavasana, letting my thoughts come, acknowledging them, and then letting them go, I received my intention…………Love! I’m thinking, love? Love what? Love more? I slowly quietened my thoughts and questions, and then it came…………..”Love, not judge”.

To make our intentions real, we were to share them with the person beside us. As I vocalised my intention, I felt every yoga session and every class up to that point in time fall into place. Loving and not judging also includes myself, my internal world, my inner child; take the time to nurture and take care of me without the fear of judgement either from myself or others. To know that I am worthy of love. To love others, not pass judgment, to be accepting of love………..and to be kind, always.

I had the privilege of meeting and working with some amazing people throughout my 4 day journey that was Wanderlust, and I am still over flowing with gratitude from the whole experience. The vibe and the energy when so many like minded people are together, is simply phenomenal!

You may not change the world, but you may just happen to be the change in someone’s world ❤️

✨Love others, without judgement.

✨Nurture your inner child, and to do so without fear of any judgement.

✨Embrace the diversity that makes us all who we are.

Until next time, take care of you.

Trene x

Letting Go……..

Hey there!

Over the past couple of months we, as a family have had a lot of things occur with in each of our individual lives, as well as our family unit. Each occurrence, situation or life event has been intertwined and linked in some shape or form. Our eldest son is now an “adult”, he has a job, a lovely girlfriend, a car and pretty much does his own thing. Our middle son is still heavily involved in all things soccer related; as I write this post we are preparing for National Titles where he will be representing QLD in the U16 Boys team, that are once again being held in Sydney N.S.W. Australia. We fly out on Sunday-very exciting times! He has also had his Set Plan interviews with his school for senior schooling subjects for the next two years; in amongst that, he has decided that he might like to look at different schools in the area, schools that offer more soccer, and soccer as a subject (cause you can never have too much soccer in your life!). And, our youngest son has also had a successful soccer season, with his U12 team winning the grand final; he is in the process of finishing up his primary school education and looking towards high school and all of the excitement and anticipation around that event! Craig has been flat out at work tendering and letting jobs, and I’ve been busy being a mum, plus working, getting the flu and, finding time to get myself well so I am available and ready to tackle whatever the boys or life throw at me! Did I mention that also through my yearning to learn and discover, I have in fact learnt that I am an Empath, oh and to top it off, my mum no longer wants a relationship with me……………..PHEW!!!

Enter self doubt, anxiety and good old fashion depression back into my life!

I’m going to be honest, I have been struggling. Every single decision I have made, I have not only second guessed it, I have third, fourth, fifth guessed it, to the point of throwing my arms up with a big old F@$K IT!! It has been hard work emotionally, and physically draining being in constant war with myself in my head, whilst putting on my “mask” of positivity to the outside world. Thank God, the Universe, Goddess (insert what is right for you), for my husband, my children, my bother and Dad. If it wasn’t for each of them, and different roles they each played during my recent dark time, I’m not sure I would’ve been so open to receiving the light that was, and is always there (even when my eyes and heart is closed to receiving).

By now, most people close to me know my “everything happens for a reason” motto. So in reflecting on everything, I decided that there is clearly a lesson for me to learn, and then share. I believe my lesson is LETTING GO.

⭐️Letting go of the want to always protect  the boys. Instead, offer guidance to them, so they can make their own, informed choices. Let them make mistakes so they learn and grow from their choices. I believe this is one lesson I will continue to learn and develop with every different, and new milestone that the boys continue to come across.

⭐️Letting go of my self image, or should I say, what I think people will think of me. All my life I have felt connected to others, be it people, animals or nature. I have always had extremely strong feelings around particular topics; respect, manners, kindness and just consideration for others, just to name a few. I have been told my whole life that I am too sensitive, I shouldn’t let others feelings affect me and, I can’t help everyone. Through my self discovery process, and after a few people have thrown into conversation that I am an Empath, I took a good hard look at my self, I read all I could find on the the topic, and I think they may be right……..I am an Empath. Instead of hiding my emotion, I need to embrace my feelings. Instead of believing that I am too sensitive, embrace my sensitivity. Instead of believing that I can’t change the world, help as many as I can make changes in their world.

My relationship with my mum is the hardest to let go………..It’s easier to walk away from people or circumstances that continually cause you pain, where the people involved are that little bit more detached, it’s very difficult when its family; especially your mother. My mother and I have butted heads from my recollection, since I was around 13. I had always basically assumed that it was normal for teenage daughters and their mums to clash occasionally-I mean, I clash with the boys occasionally; I still love them. My mother and I have had differences of opinions while I was growing into adulthood-I have differences of opinions with the boys; I still love them. When Craig and I had our marriage problems my mother was concerned and worried for me, I was choosing to stay in the marriage and give it another go-mum, at the time advised me differently; I am so pleased that I didn’t take her advice and that I made my own choices. Something I am encouraging the boys to do-make their own choices, regardless of the outcome; I will still love them. So, like what I thought normal families did, my mother and I have had our fair share of differences of opinions, I still loved her. I was in total shock, when at soccer training with our middle son, to receive a phone call from Craig saying that my mother and step father had just left our place, and my mother had told him that she can longer have a relationship with me, and handed Craig a letter to give to me. Craig read the letter, and to this day will not give it to me; he believes it’s better for my mental health for me to not read it and know exactly what my mother thinks of me and her feelings toward me. Craig has told me that he doesn’t know the person that she is referring to in the letter, but he does know that, that person is not me………..

I can not even begin to explain, how the fact that my own mother thinks so little of me, that she wants nothing to do with me, has made me feel. It lead to me questioning absolutely everything about myself. The feelings of “I must be horrible person”and, “how can I expect others to even like me, if my own mother doesn’t love me” was so overwhelming I found it a struggle to even function. I know I need to let go of this and these feelings, and it’s something that is becoming easier, but I have to admit, it’s very damn hard! And,you know what?  I still love her……..

THIS IS ME-I am learning to like me. I am hoping that in the not to distant future, I may even grow to love me.

I take care of me, I am kind to others, I am respectful to others, and I treat people the way I would like to be treated.

Until next time, take care of you…..

Trene x

Dreams, Faith and Football……..

Hey there!

So, I’ve been watching the news lately (something I don’t usually do), and I’ve noticed that there is a lot of hype at the moment within the sporting community regarding the one and only, Australian born Jarryd Hayne. As some of you are aware, I’m a mum of three beautiful sporting enthusiast boys, and a wife to a very passionate sporting enthusiast husband; so when the sport segment comes on the news in the evening, the whole house needs to be deathly silent so all sporting news can be heard throughout the entire house! Hence my interest in the subject that is Jarryd Hayne, at the moment.

Now, I follow sport, and I can genuinely say, as much as I don’t know Jarryd Hayne personally, I like him and what he represents, regarding rugby league. I can state proudly that I am my own boys biggest sporting fan and I even love playing sport. For the life of me though, I could not understand the public’s and my family’s amazement at Jarryd Hayne’s success that he is currently having in the United States in NFL (National Football League) with the San Francisco 49’s. Curious, I questioned why this was big news with my husband. I mean, doesn’t this sort of thing happen all of the time? My husband proceeded to fill me in on just how big NFL is in the U.S, and how difficult it is for players, who strive for years, to have the same success that Jarryd is currently having, and how no one really thought he would be so successful so quickly. He then asked me, “Don’t you remember when Jarryd left the NRL, and all of the hype around him at the time because he was walking away from a successful footy career to try to make it in NFL?” My response was simple, “Yes, I remember. Isn’t he just following his heart!”

When you follow your heart, and you live the path you are meant to be living, you can only have success!

At the height of Jarryd’s NRL professional rugby league career, in October 2014 , after contemplating the idea for a couple of years, Jarryd made the decision to withdraw himself from the Kangaroo Four Nations squad, gain conditional release from his NRL club (Parramatta Eels) and forgo all other representative league commitments, because he felt the need to “follow his heart” and try his hand in America in NFL. People within the rugby league community were left wondering why. Why, when he seemingly had the world at his feet, was in the middle of salary negotiations with the Parramatta Eels NRL club of negotiating a AU1.35 million dollar salary deal per season, over a five year contract, would he walk away from that? His response was this…….

“I never want to limit myself by doing things for other people, or to hold myself back because of someone else.”

Jarryd spoke of not knowing whether he should make his decision based on emotion, or on following his heart and dreams. He believed that it was emotion keeping him in the NRL at the Eels, he needed to trust the urge he felt to let go of that emotion and follow his dreams and heart. To him, none of the success he had experienced so far was about the status of being a well known footy player or the money. He simply wanted to do what he loved doing, which was playing footy. Jarryd has been quoted stating; “All I ever wanted to do was buy my mum a house. I’ve achieved that dream, now its time to chase another.” Which is exactly what he is now doing, with the support of his mum,his whole family and his unwavering faith in God.

“Without God, I can do much. With God, I can do ANYTHING”~Jarryd Hayne

I, personally am absolutely thrilled for Jarryd and the success that he is having. Not because of the fame, the status and money that will continue to come his way; instead, for the peace, the happiness and completeness he must be feeling in allowing himself the opportunity to follow his heart and to trust in his faith. He clearly knew what he needed to do, he trusted,he believed and he acted!

Why does it take for a sporting star, or any celebrity for that matter, to publicly state what I know is true, for people to sit up and take notice?

I believe we all “know”our path for this lifetime, we just forget over time and through society conditioning us, what our path, or life purpose is. How many times a month, a week, a day, do you catch yourself either doing something, or saying something that you actually don’t want to say or do? You do it anyway, even if it doesn’t “feel” right. I know I’m guilty of it!

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Through all of my questioning, research and truth seeking, I am sure of one thing. We, are meant to be happy, doing whatever makes your heart sing. I know what it is I am meant to do, I lack the belief within myself to do it! Blogging is something I “know” that I am meant to do; tell my story, and hopefully inspire others to be the change that they are looking for in the world. I get lost, side tracked and down right fearful of stepping into my truth around others that are not my immediate family. I can, and do, easily and effortlessly remind those closest to me of their truth and what I “feel” they should do, when it comes to me listening to my own advise and acting on that knowledge, I lose all confidence within myself. I am also so aware of the divine guidance I have around me, encouraging, guiding and loving me, which I also successfully point out to others about themselves; I need to step up and trust in myself and my own faith.

✨Trust that the Universe/God/Goddess (whatever is applicable to you) has your back.

✨Trust that all of those niggly little thoughts that you have consistently, are in fact the Universe/God/Goddess guiding you back to your own path.

✨Trust yourself, and follow your heart and dreams.

✨Encourage and support others to follow their heart and dreams.

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Today, and what it represents for me is a reminder that life is short. Be happy, be kind, embrace love and do what is right for you………..

Follow your dreams and your heart, you never know where they may lead you ❤️ 

Until next time, take care of you.

Trene x

Trust your gut and listen to your heart ❤️

Hey there!

Over the past few months, I have been delving into self discovery. In doing so I have discovered things about myself that I never knew existed. Firstly, I have been diagnosed with Coeliac Disease http://www.coeliac.org.au  (two of my boys as well); secondly, I have tested positive for the Methylene TetraHydroFolate Reductase (MTHFR) gene. I was tested for MTHFR C667T and MTHFR A1298C. The results came back positive-Heterozygous Mutation Detected for both. “Mutation! What do you mean MUTATION??” “ What is that” I hear you say?!  Exactly what I said to my doctor when he gave me the news, so I get where you are coming from.

The MTHFR gene encodes an enzyme in the methylation cycle.

MTHFR (‘5,10-methylenetetrahydrofolate reductase’) converts 5,10-methylenetetrahydrofolate to 5-methyltetrahydrofolate, and is an important cofactor in the biosynthesis of SAMe (S-adenosyl methionine), the primary methyl donor involved in regulating gene expression. http://www.genetics.edu.au › Health Professionals

Look what happens when you take the time to quite your mind, follow your intuition and take an interest in self discovery and health-YAY!

After suffering headaches/migraines for as long as I can recall, the sad loss of a good friend, CAT scans, MRI’s and the niggling urge to take a closer, more self invested look at my health, I was finally on the way to taking care of me. Having all standard conventional medical tests at the time come back showing I was in perfect health (ah, bull crap), I followed the advice of a respected work colleague and investigated “alternate” medicine. Fast forward two and a half, three years and here I am……….. a MTHFR mutant Coeliac!!!!

My fantastic naturopath detoxed me, I followed my intuition and chose a gluten free, dairy free, organic when possible, vegetarian “diet”,making the decision to become totally vegan late 2014. What I didn’t know at the time, was this was exactly what my body needed. 

Everything happens for a reason, the doctor who diagnosed my MTHFR and Coeliac Disease was not my usual GP of the last nine years, but one who could see me at the time I need a doctor. I knew I found the right doctor for me when he enquired about my fantastic naturopath, and along with carrying out more conventional medical tests, discussed energy flow, chakras, essential oils and intuition! Between him monitoring my blood work and ordering the required tests I need to manage my health and my naturopath monitoring my vitamin and supplement levels, I can confidently say that I am in good medical hands 😊

With the Coeliac diagnosis occurring first, it was important that I adhere to a strict gluten free diet. The diagnosis of MTHFR closely followed. It was through this diagnosis I learned that eating a plant based diet, and a toxin free as possible lifestyle plays an essential part in aiding in Methylation (a clean living lifestyle aides in Methylation and a healthy liver; a healthy liver aides in the detoxification process within our bodies) http://www.mthfrsupport.com.au/what-is-mthfr/   Something my body has been struggling with, (possibly always) and played a huge part in my headaches/migraines-who would’ve thought?

Other symptoms I have and do experience that are MTHFR related are:

  • anxiety/depression
  • insomnia
  • headaches/migraines
  • brain fogginess
  • lack of vitamin B especially B12
  • suffer dizziness
  • miscarriage
  • long standing fatigue and just don’t feel good even though you have had many tests and many doctors/specialists/practitioners have said that there is nothing wrong with you
  • inflammation
  • folate deficient

In light of this, the focus soon turned to replenishing the villi (small finger-like projections of the mucous membrane) that lines the small intestine (it is the villi’s job to absorb the nutrients we put in our body). Even though I was consciously eating right, avoiding toxins on and in my body and fuelling my body with the nutrients it needed to sustain my lifestyle, my body couldn’t absorb them because the villi was destroyed from all of the years eating the wrong foods for my body.

I cannot verbalise the sense of relief I felt through out all of this. Even though it felt like every time I had a test done, something new would pop up, at the same time I felt clarity. Clarification that I wasn’t crazy, there was an actual reason for why I felt the way I did, there was a reason for me to meet the GP I needed to meet, and a reason for my clean living dietary choices. .

There has been an accumulation of contributing factors that paved the way for me to become more aware in taking care of me, with every little step I take on my path that is life, I am continuously working on being the best version of me that I can be. I believe that I am definitely on the right track for optimum health and wellbeing-both physically and mentally. Through out the past 3 years especially, I have grown and learnt that for me to be able to be there for others, I need to be there and invest in me. I am still, and always will be, a work in progress.

I have also learned to trust. Trust your gut, intuition and any other little nigglings you feel. You know yourself better than anyone, don’t let yourself down by ignoring your intuition!

Oh, I nearly forgot. My new GP, he is currently studying natural therapies so he can offer his patients a combined and well balanced mix of both conventional and natural medicine!

Until next time…………..take care of you!

Trene x

“When faced with a dilemma, take a moment sit with the issue. Don’t rush to decide what to do. Intend to let Divine inspiration flow to you, and it will be so.” ~Christiane Northrup, M.D.

What is “having it all”??

Hey there!

As I was going back through my social media feeds-Facebook,Instagram and Twitter; I found that there is quite a bit of discussion around the phrase “having it all”. Which lead me to ponder………..

What is “having it all”? And, I guess more importantly; what does “having it all mean to me”?

As I ponder these questions, and what I want out of life, I instantly began reflecting on my life’s journey so far. Even though reflection can bring up past hurts; the current joys and the lessons those hurts have taught me, have shaped the person I have become, and still working on becoming.

Through reflection and taking the time to focus on some self awareness, I am comfortable with answering, and sharing (because sharing is caring) the question that keeps popping up on social media; “WHAT DOES HAVING IT ALL MEAN TO YOU?”

I believe that (to a certain extent) I already have it all. Or at least what I am meant to have for now. I am extremely lucky to have my own, and my family’s good health. Myself and my family are all happy and loved. We have a roof over our heads, good, healthy food in our bellies, clothes on our bodies, and abundant love and happiness in our hearts! We have fantastic friends that have become like family, and I know I am exactly where I need to be; surrounded by the people I need to be with, learning the lessons I need to learn. And hopefully, I am also making a positive difference to those who have entered my life.

This doesn’t mean that I don’t have goals; I certainly do! Or, that I’m settling; because I’m not at all. It simply means that, what having it all means to me, will differ to what it means to you; and that’s ok.

I’m yet to be a well seasoned traveler, or a six figure earning entrepreneur, but I am more than grateful for what I do have, and have already accomplished, so far in my life.

I give thanks every single day for the tremendous blessings I have in my life, and for the gifts that are family and friends-what an honour!

Anyway, until next time; be the best version of you that you can be and, take care of you 💜

Trene x

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Also, here’s a bit of Jesse J to help you through your day 😊 feel free to sing your heart out and dance along 💃🏼💃🏼

I do-ENJOY!

Take care of You ❤️

Hey there!

Firstly, I feel I need to explain my absence over the past few weeks. I have been (trying) to take some much needed time to practise what I preach and take some time for myself, my family and close friends. You know what? It’s hard!

It’s hard work remembering to be kind to yourself, to treat yourself how you would like others to treat you. And then there’s the self/energy protection work, not to mention how much energy you need to lift your vibration to a frequency of love, happiness and kindness, so you can make a difference, no matter how small, not only in your own life but also in those of the people around you that you come into contact with on a daily basis. Oh, and I nearly forgot cleansing! Remembering to cleanse and clear your energy field at the end of each day (or more often depending on circumstances) so you’re not ending the day, or carrying around other peoples dead, stagnant and/or negative energy. OMG it’s hard work!

Of course with all of this self care going on, I then end up visiting a feeling I know to well…… guilt!

Guilt tends to pop up at the end of the day, to reacquaint me with trusty old, self doubt. Now, I don’t know about you, but from my own experience, I have learned that these two feelings tend to always show up hand in hand, at the most inconvenient times. So, in amongst my self care, and revisiting some familiar feelings, I was laying low.

During this time I opened my emails to learn that the beautiful, inspirational wellness warrior, Jess Ainscough had sadly passed away. The emotion that came over me was a mixture of total shock and sadness.

When I started on my quest, with the advice and guidance from an awesome naturopath to change my diet, Jess was one of the first people I came across whilst doing a Google search on wellness, healthy eating and living. Being hungry for knowledge, I read everything I could find on her, I bought her book, “Make Peace with Your Plate” and referenced to it daily, until I knew it nearly off by heart. Through Jess, I stumbled upon another two inspirational ladies, Gabby Bernstein and Kris Carr. 

Everything Jess spoke, wrote and believed in just resonated with me. I joined her tribe, followed her posts, signed up to Bschool, participated in the Wellness Warrior transformation guide, I bought her books-she inspired me and still continues to inspire me, if she could be the change she wanted to see in the world whilst thriving with cancer, imagine what I could do being somewhat fit and healthy! I learned the importance to not wait. Don’t wait for something to go wrong in your life or wait until you have health issues to transform yourself and your life. Don’t wait to live the life you know you should be living-do it, be it! 

That said, I insisted on farewelling my friends guilt and self doubt, regather myself, focus on the new moon and the up coming lunar eclipse (that I actually missed due to too much cloud cover) and start again with my self care and energy work.

Some quick and useful tips that work for me whilst focusing on self care and energy work are:

  • Listen to your body
  • Replenish your body with water-I never leave the house with out a water bottle
  • Nourish your body with fresh, nutritional food
  • Move your body-for me, its yoga ❤️
  • Focus on loving, kind intentions and then pop a “bubble” on them-I visualise a protective “bubble” that allows my positive loving energy out, while keeping negative energy out
  • Cleanse, either in the shower or bath and wash away the days energy of others that you may have attracted-hold the intent that, that is in fact what you are doing. And lastly,
  • Grounding, either visualise yourself “rooted” to the earth, or simply get yourself barefoot and outside to reconnect with mother earth

Last weekend was my husbands birthday, the big 4 0. Unsure of what gift to give him, but knowing he has been working long, exhausting hours, I booked and planned a family weekend away to Byron Bay- and its something that we will be doing a lot more of! As a family we enjoyed our time together,celebrated Craig’s birthday, and took the time to do all of my tips listed above (the boys don’t consciously do it, over time it’s become a subconscious thing 😊).

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It’s when we connect with each other, nature, and our inner self, that we can truly be happy and rest easy knowing that all the hard work of self care and positive energy,does in fact work and is worth it!

Are you living the best version of you?

Until next time…….take care of you!

Trene x

P.S What are your tips for self care and a more positive outlook? I would love to hear from you, after all sharing is caring 😊

Never Judge a Book (or person) by the Cover……

Hey there! I have honestly spent the longest time working out how to start writing this post. I have written and rewritten parts of my introduction, my opening sentence and even considered not writing this post at all. I’ve spent time researching, looking at different sources of information, only to keep getting the urge to “just write”. You see, I am nervous, unsure and feeling very under qualified, then I realised that those feelings surrounding this post, is no different to how I’ve been feeling anyway these past few weeks. So, what the heck, here goes……….

Everyone has facets of themselves that they don’t publicly display-I am no different. What parts of myself do I show to who? Do I risk presenting all of myself, or only part of myself? Which parts do I keep sacred? Then, of course these questions lead to more questions; will that particular audience like me? If not, why won’t they like me? This brings me to my next question, and one that has been playing heavily on my heart and mind; how can I live authentically and truly take care of me, if I’m not allowing all of me to be known to the world? To live my life, and be true to myself, without the fear of judgement?

In 2008, after struggling with emotions from my past that I had basically ran away from, or tried (somewhat successfully for several years) to replace with other emotions, was diagnosed by my GP with an anxiety disorder. This anxiety contributed to panic attacks that I suffered almost daily. Prior to our move to the beautiful Sunshine Coast, here in QLD Australia, I started my “self care”journey. I saw a medium, who by the way, blew me away with her knowledge of me and prompted the commencement of investing time into myself. I learned Reiki, joined a meditation group, practiced prayer and began to feel a sense of self. It was at this point in my life, I started to learn the importance of, and actively practiced daily positive affirmations. Then once again, fear set in!

What if I didn’t remain positive enough? What about the negative thoughts, or the unpleasant things that happened in my life? If your thoughts create your reality, I must be creating these unpleasant things that were occurring in my life! More fear set in, my self talk turned to only trying to focus on good, positive happy thoughts. Do you know how hard it is to actually do that? I do, it’s bloody hard, did my head in hard, until the day I finally spoke to my GP. He gently reassured me that I wasn’t going mad, and put in place a mental health plan and a referral to speak with a psychologist. Even speaking with the psychologist and opening up to her about my feelings, my past, my future, left me feeling embarrassed-even ashamed. What will people think? Will they think I’m crazy? I chose to only confide in a few close people, who I thought loved me unconditionally, my husband and my mother. My husband was supportive as well as thankful that I was finally getting some help, my panic attacks also took their toll on him. He was the only person capable of talking me through them and calming me down; my mother often accused my psychologist of filling my head with rot, and doing more harm than good! So once again, I had to choose what parts of me I presented to who.

Over the years I have learned how to fake a smile or happiness, not let myself get too close to people and resist help from others, just to save myself from embarrassment or the fear of not being liked or accepted for who I am. In my deepest and darkest times, I found myself contemplating my “way out”. You see, on the outside, to anyone looking “in” I appeared to be ok. I appeared to be happily married, I had three happy and healthy boys, drove a nice car, had a few friends and always had a friendly smile for everyone. On the inside, I struggled daily to keep up the act, eventually leading to my suicidal thought pattern. I honestly believed that my family would be better off without me. I owe a hell of a lot to the psychologist who helped me through those dark thoughts………without her professionalism, her ability to encourage me to see my own self worth, and her persistence in encouraging me to show her “all” of me; I’m pretty sure I would’ve either took my own life, or by now, be on a destructive path of self loathing. I am well aware of my blessings, and give thanks daily!

Last Thursday a young boy who also appeared ok, who was a fun, vibrant and full of life young man, decided to opt out of life. For reasons yet unknown, this young man who only last September/October captained his U16 QLD State soccer team to second place at Nationals in Sydney, who was athletic, a little cheeky, but always willing to support his fellow team mates, and appeared to have it all together,  decided to take his own life. He was a young man that my 15 year old son got to know, room with, look up to, and had the pleasure to call his mate. I have since had the hard task of helping my son through not only his grief, but his confusion and questions of “why”.

Why did this young man, with his whole life ahead of him feel like he had no other options? Why did he not talk about his feelings or whatever was going on in his life? Was he afraid of what others would think of him? Did he feel he wasn’t worthy of support, or his feelings weren’t important? These are questions that I don’t think my son will ever know the answers to, all I can do is be there for him, listen, give advice on the facts I have, and know the answers to, offer comfort, remind him to openly talk about his own feelings, not bottle things up, and know that no matter what is going on in his life, my job as his mum and just a caring human being, is to never judge, but only to love.

We as a collective need to practice kindness, not judgement. Who are we to pass judgement on how others feel. We are not them, we haven’t walked in their shoes, hence we should never judge. If we lost the ability to judge, maybe we would find the ability to present our true selves to the world. If we practiced kindness always, maybe we would feel valued and loved. If we listened to our hearts and spoke out of love, kindness and mindfulness, maybe we would be free to openly be our true selves.

These are qualities I try to live by daily and instil in my own children. I’m hoping, if nothing else, that the sad loss my son is feeling at the moment, will help him be a kinder human being. Teach him to look, love and care deeper. To look past the smile or what appears to be happiness, and see the people around him for the same loving soul that he is and offer friendship even when it appears it’s not needed. Treat people how he wishes to be treated, and hopefully do so out of love, not fear. Maybe, due to my own feelings around taking my own life, has equipped me to support my son at this sad time in his life. Everything happens for a reason after all, even if we don’t know the reason at the time.

As for myself, I still suffer from anxiety, not to the extreme that I did in the past, and I now have the skills I need to cope. My anxiety doesn’t define me, it is simply an aspect of me that I usually choose to hide from the world. I’m hoping that by me presenting a little more of my true self to you, that I will lose the fear of judgement and maybe help someone else lose theirs as well.

Suicide is a serious issue, and unfortunately it is increasing. If you, or someone you know needs help to talk through, or cope with any feelings regarding suicide, please know that there are people and/or services willing to be of assistance. Your feelings will be heard without judgement. If fear or judgement is preventing you from speaking with a loved one, your GP is a good place to start. Lifeline and Beyond Blue are also trained professionals, I have spoken with both at different periods in my life, and everything you share is strictly confidential.

While I’m on the subject of presenting all of me to the world, here is a copy from my “notes” on my Facebook page (written a little while ago, but still true to this day)

25 Random things February 24, 2009 at 1:21pm

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 random people to be tagged including the person who tagged you. (To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right-hand corner of the page, then click Publish)

  1. I enjoy being a wife and mother.

2.I married my best friend, Craig!

3.I believe in God.

4.I believe everything happens for a reason….even if at the time its the worst thing to ever happen to you!

5.I believe in telling/showing the people who are important to you just how much you care/love them…….life is short!

6.I suffer from anxiety……

7.The safest place in the whole world for me is in Craigs arms!

8.I miss my friends in Uralla……and i think of them often!

9.I loved drama at school.

10.Was born in Inverell N.S.W

  1. Love playing netball.

12.Love sleeping in on Sundays with Craig and the boys all in our bed…….

13.Love watching the boys ,whether its their choosen sport,watching t.v,playing..it doesnt matter.

14.Enjoys long talks and lots of laughter with Craig.

15.I have a tattoo and would like at least 1 more.

16.Loves watching sport….footy, soccer, tennis, netball….not to keen on watching golf……would rather play it, though Im not very good at it!

17.Sad songs always make me cry!

18.I like fishing and camping….but can no longer relax like I used too, cause Im always supervising the boys!

19.Used to do gymnastics up untill the age of 14.

20.Likes being pampered with a massage or foot rub.

21.Wishes I could sometimes be more patient!

22.enjoys catching up with old good friends and family!

23.Love reading…..will read nearly anything!

24.Loves music….listening to it, trying to play it…singing,although not great at it…love singing with the boys! I listen to music all day…..there is always music at our house!

25.Feels very blessed to have met and have the people that i have in my life! They are all wonderful people…..and I consider myself to be the luckiest mummy and wife in the whole world to be blessed with my three beautiful boys and loving husband…. I thank God for these special gifts every day!

Until next time, take care of you! Trene x

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PS I would absolutely love to hear from you. Please feel free to comment below, introduce yourself or even share a bit about yourself ❤️ be the best version of you

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