You may, or may not know that I love to learn. In my efforts to learn, I am implementing daily podcasts into my life. I currently have 3 on the go. They are “Sounds like Bliss”~Tara Bliss. “Dr. Wayne W Dyer podcast”~Dr. Wayne Dyer. And, “On Purpose”~Jay Shetty
On that note I’m going to share this quote;
“I’m not what I think I am, I’m not what you think I am……I am, what I think, you think, I am..”~ Cooly; as cited by Jay Shetty
Think about that. When Jay first referenced it, I literally stopped (I was walking my dog), listened to the quote again, and again…. and then I turned the podcast off….I needed to soak up those words. Allow those words to sit with me. I recall thinking at the time, that truer words I had not heard! So many of us live our lives in a way that is not aligned with our spirit. We tend to live the life that others would like us to lead. Worrying about things that will probably never happen. Trying to live up to others expectations. When in reality, those expectations are the expectations that we think others have….as someone who has suffered from mental illness (yep, finally said it!), these words felt like I was given permission to truly be me.
When I sit and imperfectly write my blog, I am showing you….me.
I always write from a place of feeling and honesty. Sometimes I write a whole post with tears streaming down my face. Some posts are written straight after I have had an amazing meditation session and I am keen to share my “ah-ha moments”. Some of them are quickly scribbled on whatever I can find in my car, in between football training when the feeling occurs. But, all of them are written from an open, honest and loving heart.
Also, while I’m sharing…… I wrote a mini ebook. My first “published” ebook!
Is it perfect? No.
Is it an in-depth novel? No.
Is it a bit dodgy? Probably, there are definitely things I can (and will on my next one) improve on.
Is it all my own work? Yes, using references from reputable sources, and my own knowledge.
Why? For the same reasons I write a blog; I want to share my knowledge and experiences with others.
Maybe, just like the blog posts, if by me sharing a little of myself can help just one person. If my imperfect writing and knowledge touch just one person, and then that one person takes something positive away from my experiences, then me putting myself “out there”, with an open heart, is worth any judgment that may come my way.
Realistically, over time I have been my own worst enemy and harshest critic. Over the years, I have beat myself up physically, emotionally and mentally. There is very little that anybody could say to me that I have not;
- heard before, or
- said to myself.
Does that mean it no longer hurts when I hear it? No, it still hurts.
Does that mean that I have “thick skin” and let everything roll over me? No, I’m a f%#king empath; I feel EVERYTHING!
What it does mean is that I am hopefully allowing myself to feel, to learn, to grow and evolve and then share with others, in the hope of providing comfort or reassurance for anyone experiencing similar experiences.
If I am to be really honest; me sharing my thoughts, feelings, and life experiences are for me- to help me, kinda understand me.
So; so far this year…. I have sworn and cursed my way through January (yep, I can have a potty mouth). Flew through February. Lost my Nanna early March, and in between, I am making a conscious effort to “show up” as a dōTERRA Wellness Advocate, and taking a whole new approach to sharing the beautiful and magickal (no not a spelling error, I am deliberately spelling it that way) dōTERRA essential oils. AND, I have made the decision to team up with Herbalife Nutrition as a Herbalife promotor and distributor.
Doing me, in a way that feels aligned with my core values and beliefs. Watch this space……
In the meantime, if you get a chance, blast some Jay Shetty, Wayne Dyer or Tara Bliss into your eardrums; you won’t regret it!
Until next time, take care of you.
for all things dōTERRA and/or Herbalife please contact me privately and I will get back to you ASAP