So, we are currently building ourselves a new home…..
“Build a house”, they said.
“It will be fun”, they said.
“I know people who owe us favours”, he said.
Well, I’m going to be brutally honest here. It hasn’t been all fun, smiles, sunshine and laughter. It has rained for nearly the whole build process. There were days, and I mean days, of simply shoveling red mud. Plans have been changed (mainly because they weren’t drawn correctly to start with). Lazy tradies, or no tradies. And because we are building on a sloping block, the logistics of simply getting materials to site and then up to the right level, has been nothing short of hard work; either by negotiating the delivery people getting the materials where they need to be, or us just simply pumping up our muscles and physically moving them ourselves. It has been, and still is hard work; physically, emotionally and mentally.
I actually thought that because our marriage had survived heart wrenching, punch in gut, sit me on my arse lows; building a house would be a marriage walk in the park…….
UMMMM, NO……F*%#KING WRONG!!!!
High school sweethearts. Together since 16; 27 years in fact, and married for 22 of those this coming August. Together, I thought that we had been through, and seen it all regarding marriage; how wrong was I ???
I mean, I’m not trying to be a “negative Nancy” or anything, but this whole process (and believe me, it ain’ t over yet) has been one of the most emotion fuelled, rollercoaster of an event, that I have endured.
Theres been shouting, object throwing, swearing, threats made, loads of tears, and……. oh wait- that’s just from me! Poor Craig….he really has had, and continues to have, the patience of a saint through out this whole experience. All of my “everything will happen when its meant to happen” mantra packed up, waved bon voyage (probs flipped me the bird as well) and is currently on vacay, in some unknown holiday destination.
Me, being me, has been looking at this from a teaching view-point. What am I supposed to learn from this? How can I grow through this? What came back to me was; surrender, trust, patience and acceptance.
Surrender ALL of my fears surrounding this experience to the Universe.
Accept what I have no control over.
Practice patience. Have patience for the whole process; with not only others, but also myself.
Trust in the process, that it will all work out.
Trust that we will be in the house when the timing is right.
And most importantly……
Trust in my love for Craig, and the commitment we have each made to our relationship. We CAN do this. We DO have this. The Universe DOES have our back!
“……when you think you have surrendered, surrender more.”
~Gabrielle Bernstein; The Universe Has Your Back.
Until next time, take care of you.