This past weekend, my husband and I celebrated our eighteenth year wedding anniversary. I know right, eighteen years!! It doesn’t feel that long, neither of us feels like eighteen years has gone by since that very wet, extremely cold and windy August day in country N.S.W, where we stood in the small town that we then lived in’s Anglican church and exchanged wedding vows in front of family and friends. Fast forward a bit and my husband is still my best friend, my partner in crime, my love and my rock. He has been witness to me at my worst, and comforted and guided me though it, as well as being there to support and encourage me at my best, to be the best version of me that I can be. Together, we have experienced a marriage all time low, but also plenty of exhilarating highs. There is no other person that knows me like he does.
We have welcomed three beautiful, healthy and active boys into the world, and we have had the headache of losing twin girls at around the half way mark of my pregnancy with them. And there it is……………”everything happens for a reason”. We wouldn’t have had our third son if we hadn’t of lost the twins. He was/is the last piece of our little family puzzle, I still remember the “completeness” I felt, and continue to feel after the arrival of our healthy little boy. Every night I give thanks for my boys and husband, every night I remind them, of how lucky I am to have them in my life. Its through them, that I continue to find the driving force I need, to be the best version of me.
I really do consider myself the luckiest mum and wife in the world! The love, thanks and gratitude I feel for my family (and close friends) is overwhelming, I struggle to put it into words. So, that said, why all of a sudden has all of my positivity decided to pack up and vacate today?!? The thanks and the gratitude are still here, but where has my positive energy gone? It feels like we all went to bed last night, and this morning when we woke, hello…….no positivity! Now I am a big believer in “our thoughts create our reality” mindset, and right now, I’ll be honest, without positivity around, I’m not game to think too much. What if I think the wrong thing? Maybe I will over think (which I do frequently), and something that was a small problem, if it was even a problem at all, will grow into an enormous, all consuming worry! Why when I have had a fantastic anniversary weekend, my family are happy and healthy and I’m absolutely loving life, this happens? Is it a reminder to stay true to myself, even when my energy appears and feels positive and happy; continue self care, continue to practice kindness and mindfulness, pay attention to my energy levels, and listen to my body?
Until next time, take care of you
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